PipeChat Digest #4308 - Friday, February 27, 2004
 
Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist
  by "Ray Ahrens" <Ray_Ahrens@msn.com>
RE: new Johannus organ
  by "Brad Eveland" <beveland@millsauto.com>
RE: AFTER "THE PASSION" --- OFF TOPIC
  by "Emmons, Paul" <PEMMONS@wcupa.edu>
Re: An engineering question (X posted)
  by "Jim McFarland" <mcfarland6@juno.com>
Roland keyboard
  by <Miltronix@comcast.net>
Heiller in The American Organist magazine
  by <TubaMagna@aol.com>
Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist
  by "atal" <atal@sympatico.ca>
Re: new Johannus organ
  by "F. Richard Burt" <effarbee@verizon.net>
Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist
  by "Randolph Runyon" <runyonr@muohio.edu>
Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist
  by "Bill Raty" <billious@billraty.com>
Re: new Johannus organ
  by "Alan Freed" <acfreed0904@earthlink.net>
Re: new Johannus organ
  by "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net>
Vicscount EXL-200 problem
  by <goetzen@wshe.lodz.pl>
Re: new Johannus organ
  by "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net>
RE: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist
  by "Glenda" <gksjd85@direcway.com>
 

(back) Subject: Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist From: "Ray Ahrens" <Ray_Ahrens@msn.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 13:44:40 -0600   No, don't hang up your shoes. Go see a sports psychologist, and hire a = hit-man to take care of that teacher who said your playing was an insult = to God. ----- Original Message -----=20 From: BRUCE SHAW=20 To: PipeChat=20 Sent: Friday, February 27, 2004 12:56 PM Subject: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist     ...and I don't know what to do about it. I'm quietly losing my mind = over this.   I'm hoping those of you with students may have seen something like = this before and have some kind of recommendation.   The problem - wrong notes.   Ignoring wrong notes, here's the kind of material I can play.   Bach: Passacaglia and Fugue C minor, Dorian=20 Vierne: Most of the 24 pieces including #24 (my favourite) Buxtehude: anything Pachelbel: anything   I graduated from the University of Western Ontario Music department = with a B.Mus.A. in music education as an Organ major with passable = marks.   What I can't play (perfectly)   -any hymn longer than three verses -the Eight Short   Here's what it's like for me playing a typical hymn eg. Tallis Canon   Run-through - fine 1st verse - muddle the first chord (distracted by herd of elephants = standing up) 2nd verse - fine 3rd verse - miss two chords (forgot what verse we're on) 4th verse - utter mess (missed a piston change, memory blanked on a = chord) 5th verse - fine Amen - missed chord (worried about introit)   I don't think I've ever played the Creed once, perfectly. My fingers = seem to get tangled up. I've tried numbering the score, memorizing the = score, singing along, NOT singing along, watching the pedals, NOT = watching the pedals. Practice seems to make it worse, not better. One = organ teacher said my playing was an insult to God.   I think I know what the problem is.   1. Attention Deficit Disorder 2. Sensory Integration Deficit 3. Perfectionism   1. ADD is a problem for me. I take medication for it but it doesn't = seem to help my playing as much as I would like it to. One thing is, = it's variable. Two years ago I was playing the Easter Hymn (after a = four-minute improvised "run up") and one of the servers knocked over the = massive Advent Candle, which fell like an earthquake, shattering, nearly = staring a fire, to the screams of the congregation....and didn't miss a = note. Other times, a server dousing a candle during the postlude will = cause a train wreck.   2. My son was having trouble in school following instructions and was = sent to a audiologist who performed a special test. It turned out that = he had an ear->brain hearing deficit where what was being said by the = teacher would get "scrambled". When the audiologist described the test = I was horrified, because I would surely "flunk" it. If two people are = standing on either side of me talking at the same time, I'm utterly lost = - I can't understand ANYTHING either one of them is saying. I had a job = in a recording studio and started to get complaints like "that doesn't = sound like a choir - that sounds like 78 soloists". Well, that's = exactly what I hear - 78 soloists. I have never understood what people = mean by "blend". I have terrible issues with background noise. If = there's a tap or fan running - I go basically deaf to speech. What I'm = wondering is if there's some sort of issue blocking what I'm hearing to = what I'm thinking to what I'm fingering. Things just seem to free ze up.   3. The congregation doesn't care. They're perfectly happy. I'm the = only one complaining. Problem is, one note off sets me off and then I'm = in misery for the rest of the piece and disillusioned about my success = on the next one.   I'd love to do a recital sometime and I've even got the material = picked out and practiced up. Problem is, I can't get through one piece = perfectly. I'll get laughed off the stage. If I can't even get through = the eight short in one piece why bother?   Anybody seen this before? Is it time to hang up my shoes?     "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org        
(back) Subject: RE: new Johannus organ From: "Brad Eveland" <beveland@millsauto.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 13:52:58 -0600   I'm curious what the "music notation software" is used for.       -----Original Message----- From: pipechat@pipechat.org [mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org] On Behalf Of Octaaf Sent: Friday, February 27, 2004 1:02 PM To: PipeChat Subject: Re: new Johannus organ   Why not just post the direct URL instead of sending us on a stroll through the Johannus website. I don't really care what Johannus is or isn't doing (non-compliance with US FCC Regs ring a bell?). Never mind... the URL is: http://www.sjlcarnold.org for those that would rather click thru.   Have a great day,   Tim             --- Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). Version: 6.0.596 / Virus Database: 379 - Release Date: 2/26/2004   "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org        
(back) Subject: RE: AFTER "THE PASSION" --- OFF TOPIC From: "Emmons, Paul" <PEMMONS@wcupa.edu> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 14:55:43 -0500   Perhaps I shouldn't say anything until I have seen this movie, but at = least I intend to see it.   Someone in another forum pointed out that, historically, Protestants = have decried detailed representation or dwelling upon the suffering of = Jesus as popish. For evangelicals now to flock to this film and glory = in it represents rather an about-face. It's hardly the first time that = they have forgotten their roots. The children of the Reformation also = used to maintain stoutly that marriage was formed by and between two = consenting partners-- or entirely a matter of the civil government-- and = definitely was NOT something for clergy to grant or with-hold. Peter = Gomes of Harvard, in his own web site, pointed out that the first = Massachusetts "pilgrim" settlers believed this.   But in regards to this film, if their enthusiasm for it indicates a = reversal of their historical attitude and sentiment, we shouldn't = complain. A realistic representation of Christ's suffering is a = representation of His humanity. Hence, for those with Manichaean or = gnostic leanings, it underlines the doctrine of the Incarnation.   Inasmuch as the justification for church music depends on this doctrine, = we might consider the popularity of this film as some cause for = optimism.   Probably others will come up with a somewhat different line of reasoning = that is less favorable-- or I might myself after seeing it. But this = consideration ought at least to keep us from condemning it _a priori_.         =20                 > -----Original Message----- > From: Charlie Lester [SMTP:crlester@137.com] > Sent: Thursday, February 26, 2004 4:20 PM > To: PipeChat > Subject: AFTER "THE PASSION" --- OFF TOPIC >=20 > I don't want to add a lot of fuel to this debate, lest it=20 > turn into a conflagration, but do wish to state that I have=20 > no intention whatsoever of seeing this horror movie. >=20 > St. Thomas the Apostle said, "Except I shall see in his=20 > hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the=20 > print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will=20 > not believe." (John 20:25 KJV) >=20 > Apparently, there are many modern-day "Doubting Thomases"=20 > who also need graphic validation of the crucifixion in order=20 > to believe. >=20 > However, Jesus himself said, to St. Thomas in fact, "Blessed=20 > are they that have not seen, and yet have believed. (John=20 > 20:29b KVJ) >=20 > I'd rather know that I am blessed for my faith, than to fear=20 > that I must witness the unspeakable violence and paralyzing=20 > agony of his crucifixion first-hand in order to believe. >=20 > Especially when we're talking about a Hollywood movie that=20 > has taken a number of liberties with the Gospel accountings=20 > of the event. And that, furthermore, despite the filmmaker's=20 > suave denials, the film is in some ways blatantly anti-Semitic. >=20 > My understanding of the life of Jesus Christ is that it is=20 > the RESURRECTION, and not the death, that is the focal=20 > point. I would rather live my life on a daily basis under=20 > that "blessed hope" than to cower and tremble in sickened=20 > terror sitting in a dark movie theater watching a twisted=20 > moviemaker's pornographic, sadomasochistic fantasy play out=20 > before me. >=20 > Anyone who cares to further discuss this off-list with me=20 > may feel free to email me. Since it's not a topical=20 > discussion for the list, I don't want to get into it here=20 > any further. >=20 > ~ > C >=20 >=20 > "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" > PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics > HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org > List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org > Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org > Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org >=20 >=20  
(back) Subject: Re: An engineering question (X posted) From: "Jim McFarland" <mcfarland6@juno.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 15:08:54 -0500     On Fri, 27 Feb 2004 15:45:03 -0400 = =3D?iso-8859-1?B?QW5kculzIEf8bnRoZXI=3D?=3D <agun@telcel.net.ve> writes: > Andres Gunther > agun@telcel.net.ve > > Dear friends, > Does somebody know if values and formulae for *wood* (joists, > beams, studs, structures) strength calculations are available ON > LINE?     Please forgive me for not giving the correct sort of answer. I do not know what is online, because I need go no further than a refernce book I own: Understanding Wood, by R. Bruce Hoadley.   Readily available at Amazon and many other places. about $25.00   I have owned this book for over twenty years, and do not understand how I ever got along without it.     Jim  
(back) Subject: Roland keyboard From: <Miltronix@comcast.net> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 20:25:57 +0000   Hi Listers. If anyone wants a *fine* portable keyboard and can act <quick>, there's a = Roland C-180 on E-bay presently going for less than $200... "listed" for = the next day or so.   I can attest that the C-180 sounds wonderful, has a powerful internal = audio, and is solidly built. I use mine almost constantly. Alas, it's now = out of production...more's the pity, as they say.   I don't know how to put the URL in this message, but you can go to = EBAY.COM and do a search for Roland C180.   FWIW.   Bill Miller, Coleman Place PC-USA, Norfolk VA  
(back) Subject: Heiller in The American Organist magazine From: <TubaMagna@aol.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 15:43:01 EST   Ladies and Gents:   For those of you who not only subscribe to The American Organist, but read it, too, your March issue should be arriving within a week or so. In addition to my regular column on organbuilding, I have written a = piece on Anton and Erna Heiller, which includes portions of a taped interview by =   Heiller's student, Thomas Lee Bailey. Several of the topics that surface on these organ chatlists with regularity are addressed by Frau Heiller -- most notably the importance of = proper piano technique before mastering the organ. Other important topics include =   all-around musicianship away from the organ, the need to be familiarity = with music OTHER than organ and choral music, and the sensitivity of mechanical = action. I hope that you have a chance to read it, and that it sheds a bit more =   light on the Heillers and music-making.   Sebastian M. Gluck New York City  
(back) Subject: Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist From: "atal" <atal@sympatico.ca> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 16:22:26 -0500   Bruce, Your confession was interesting to read, and I'm sure there is an element = of torment in what you experience. Take heart - there have been musicians of great genius who either heard voices, or were constantly terrified (i.e. Tchaikovsky). I wouldn't even begin to tell you what to do, because it sounds very much like a physiological condition - not a mere case of "nerves." Hope you find the right person who can help you. You say your congregation doesn't care. That may just be the silver lining!   Andreas Thiel in St. Marys, Ontario ----- Original Message ----- From: "BRUCE SHAW" <bruce.shaw@shaw.ca> To: "PipeChat" <pipechat@pipechat.org> Sent: Friday, February 27, 2004 1:56 PM Subject: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist     > ...and I don't know what to do about it. I'm quietly losing my mind = over this. > > I'm hoping those of you with students may have seen something like this before and have some kind of recommendation. > > The problem - wrong notes. > > Ignoring wrong notes, here's the kind of material I can play. > > Bach: Passacaglia and Fugue C minor, Dorian > Vierne: Most of the 24 pieces including #24 (my favourite) > Buxtehude: anything > Pachelbel: anything > > I graduated from the University of Western Ontario Music department with = a B.Mus.A. in music education as an Organ major with passable marks. > > What I can't play (perfectly) > > -any hymn longer than three verses > -the Eight Short > > Here's what it's like for me playing a typical hymn eg. Tallis Canon > > Run-through - fine > 1st verse - muddle the first chord (distracted by herd of elephants standing up) > 2nd verse - fine > 3rd verse - miss two chords (forgot what verse we're on) > 4th verse - utter mess (missed a piston change, memory blanked on a = chord) > 5th verse - fine > Amen - missed chord (worried about introit) > > I don't think I've ever played the Creed once, perfectly. My fingers = seem to get tangled up. I've tried numbering the score, memorizing the score, singing along, NOT singing along, watching the pedals, NOT watching the pedals. Practice seems to make it worse, not better. One organ teacher said my playing was an insult to God. > > I think I know what the problem is. > > 1. Attention Deficit Disorder > 2. Sensory Integration Deficit > 3. Perfectionism > > 1. ADD is a problem for me. I take medication for it but it doesn't = seem to help my playing as much as I would like it to. One thing is, it's variable. Two years ago I was playing the Easter Hymn (after a = four-minute improvised "run up") and one of the servers knocked over the massive = Advent Candle, which fell like an earthquake, shattering, nearly staring a fire, = to the screams of the congregation....and didn't miss a note. Other times, a server dousing a candle during the postlude will cause a train wreck. > > 2. My son was having trouble in school following instructions and was sent to a audiologist who performed a special test. It turned out that he had an ear->brain hearing deficit where what was being said by the teacher would get "scrambled". When the audiologist described the test I was horrified, because I would surely "flunk" it. If two people are standing = on either side of me talking at the same time, I'm utterly lost - I can't understand ANYTHING either one of them is saying. I had a job in a recording studio and started to get complaints like "that doesn't sound = like a choir - that sounds like 78 soloists". Well, that's exactly what I hear = - 78 soloists. I have never understood what people mean by "blend". I have terrible issues with background noise. If there's a tap or fan running - = I go basically deaf to speech. What I'm wondering is if there's some sort = of issue blocking what I'm hearing to what I'm thinking to what I'm = fingering. Things just seem to free > ze up. > > 3. The congregation doesn't care. They're perfectly happy. I'm the = only one complaining. Problem is, one note off sets me off and then I'm in misery for the rest of the piece and disillusioned about my success on the next one. > > I'd love to do a recital sometime and I've even got the material picked out and practiced up. Problem is, I can't get through one piece = perfectly. I'll get laughed off the stage. If I can't even get through the eight = short in one piece why bother? > > Anybody seen this before? Is it time to hang up my shoes? > > > "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" > PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics > HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org > List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org > Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org > Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org > >    
(back) Subject: Re: new Johannus organ From: "F. Richard Burt" <effarbee@verizon.net> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 15:42:59 -0600   Hi, Dale: =20 You wrote: =20 > i was told no shipments until MARCH------by dealers dale in florida=20   'Tis true. That's normal for the new production in 2004. I have two organs on order now, and will=20 have another shortly. We are counting delivery=20 from date the order is entered at Johannus. =20 F. Richard Burt =20 =20 ..  
(back) Subject: Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist From: "Randolph Runyon" <runyonr@muohio.edu> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 17:11:44 -0500   on 2/27/04 1:56 PM, BRUCE SHAW at bruce.shaw@shaw.ca wrote:     >   > Amen - missed chord (worried about introit)     Are they still singing Amens at the end of hymns in your church? I = haven't seen a church do that in years (thank God). ; - )     Randy Runyon Music Director Zion Lutheran Church Hamilton, Ohio runyonr@muohio.edu      
(back) Subject: Re: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist From: "Bill Raty" <billious@billraty.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 14:36:23 -0800 (PST)   Bruce,   Take heart! One thing that has helped me is to -know- that people show up for an event (church, recital, what-have-you) to participate and also witness your success, not to gloat and take joy in your misery over a mistake.   Remember that people often laugh because they empathize with the person in the difficult situation and realize how humiliating it can feel, ex.: think of Lucy in the chocolate factory. The sketch is so funny because people know how pressured and frustrated she is. The laughter is really their unconsious reflexive way of lending you their emotional support!   BTW, a nephew of mine has the sensory disorder too. By all means get diagnosed. Its better to find out and treat the disorder if necessary instead of agonizing whether you are afflicted. I'm sure your son has been "prescribed" some excercises. There is a way out. Ask yourself how good would your playing be if you never had practiced and done the work to learn both technique and repertoire?   Finally, let me add that I always remember what my family of (visual) artists have told me: mistakes are often opportunities for creating a better work. Wasn't it Gerre Hancock that said, "happiness is only a half-step away."   Regards and good luck!,   -Bill    
(back) Subject: Re: new Johannus organ From: "Alan Freed" <acfreed0904@earthlink.net> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 18:05:30 -0500   On 2/27/04 12:45 PM, "gdeboer@bluemarble.net" <gdeboer@bluemarble.net> wrote:   > This organ has 117 stops and 36 channels spread across the front of the > church. > To see: > Goto johannus.com > click on Agenda > Goto church website > Click on New Organ > Enjoy the pictures, etc.   Well, I did that. I'm visually handicapped, so it was slow. Temporarily, = I hope. New specs coming in two weeks.   And the console, and its "details," are awesome. I'm tempted to say "too much"! I've never seen so many pistons in an aircraft carrier engine = room (which is really six or eight gigantic chambers)!   I didn't have much sense of "reality." The big chancel photo: an organ console and a grand piano! Wonderful! No altar? I thought this was a Lutheran Church, and I'm getting suspicious. For contrast, see LOTS of organ photos, but altar CENTRAL at www.stlukesnyc.org which is where I hang out. Maybe it's a big (or not big?) difference in emphasis.   I don't know; it just seems foreign to me.   Alan      
(back) Subject: Re: new Johannus organ From: "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 17:25:10 -0600   There is also a Gallery Division in the back of the church James Grebe Piano-Forte Tuning & Repair Artisan of Wood WWW.JamesGrebe.com 1526 Raspberry Lane Arnold, MO 63010 pianoman@accessus.net ----- Original Message ----- From: <gdeboer@bluemarble.net> To: "PipeChat" <pipechat@pipechat.org> Sent: Friday, February 27, 2004 11:45 AM Subject: Re: new Johannus organ     Dear Alan et al,   This organ has 117 stops and 36 channels spread across the front of the church. To see: Goto johannus.com click on Agenda Goto church website Click on New Organ Enjoy the pictures, etc.   Gary     Quoting Alan Freed <acfreed0904@earthlink.net>:   > On 2/26/04 7:54 PM, "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net> wrote: > > >> On Sunday 2/22/04 a new Johannus 4m/139 digital ranks was recitaled = at > St. > >> John's Lutheran in Arnold, MO . It is said to be the largest of this make > in > >> MO at this moment. It was installed in a new sanctuary for this = church > and > >> the recitalist was Dr. Zuiderveld of Springfield , IL > > James, I appreciate your comments. > > I don't want to appear too bigoted here, but when an organ has more manuals > than it has RANKS of actual PIPES--or even PIPES at all! (forget RANKS = of > them!), I wonder whether money has been well spent. I mean, when they say > "4/139" who BELIEVES it? (That's bigger than the biggest church organ = in > the whole middle of the US of A!--which I think is 126 rks at Fourth = Pres. > in Chicago.) > > Now that's a very opinionated opinion, and from a person NOT qualified = to > even HAVE an opinion. But that's where it is. But it was only a few lines. > > Can you supply URL for the parish? I'm curious to see this wonderful > thing. (What can it LOOK like?) And how it's "billed." > > Alan www.stlukesnyc.org for a small (but real) one > > "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" > PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics > HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org > List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org > Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org > Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org > > >       "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org          
(back) Subject: Vicscount EXL-200 problem From: <goetzen@wshe.lodz.pl> Date: Sat, 28 Feb 2004 00:31:36 +0100   Hello !   My Viscount EXL-200 pipe organ module is in trounle. I am looking for a schematic diagram of it. If you have one I will be very happy to receive = it. Thanks Piotr  
(back) Subject: Re: new Johannus organ From: "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 17:36:09 -0600   others have shown the URL   James Grebe Piano-Forte Tuning & Repair Artisan of Wood WWW.JamesGrebe.com 1526 Raspberry Lane Arnold, MO 63010 pianoman@accessus.net ----- Original Message ----- From: "Alan Freed" <acfreed0904@earthlink.net> To: "PipeChat" <pipechat@pipechat.org> Sent: Thursday, February 26, 2004 7:25 PM Subject: Re: new Johannus organ     > On 2/26/04 7:54 PM, "James Grebe" <pianoman@accessus.net> wrote: > > >> On Sunday 2/22/04 a new Johannus 4m/139 digital ranks was recitaled = at St. > >> John's Lutheran in Arnold, MO . It is said to be the largest of this make in > >> MO at this moment. It was installed in a new sanctuary for this = church and > >> the recitalist was Dr. Zuiderveld of Springfield , IL > > James, I appreciate your comments. > > I don't want to appear too bigoted here, but when an organ has more manuals > than it has RANKS of actual PIPES--or even PIPES at all! (forget RANKS = of > them!), I wonder whether money has been well spent. I mean, when they say > "4/139" who BELIEVES it? (That's bigger than the biggest church organ = in > the whole middle of the US of A!--which I think is 126 rks at Fourth = Pres. > in Chicago.) > > Now that's a very opinionated opinion, and from a person NOT qualified = to > even HAVE an opinion. But that's where it is. But it was only a few lines. > > Can you supply URL for the parish? I'm curious to see this wonderful > thing. (What can it LOOK like?) And how it's "billed." > > Alan www.stlukesnyc.org for a small (but real) one > > "Pipe Up and Be Heard!" > PipeChat: A discussion List for pipe/digital organs & related topics > HOMEPAGE : http://www.pipechat.org > List: mailto:pipechat@pipechat.org > Administration: mailto:admin@pipechat.org > Subscribe/Unsubscribe: mailto:requests@pipechat.org > >      
(back) Subject: RE: I have a confession to make - I'm a terrible organist From: "Glenda" <gksjd85@direcway.com> Date: Fri, 27 Feb 2004 17:40:58 -0600   The answer is bananas - one in the mouth and one under each arm, and you'll play like a new person!   Seriously, are you apprehensive or anxious when you make the mistakes? Is your mind wandering? Are you being diverted by activities around you? Are you having what I sometimes call my "synaptic gaps", where you are looking at the music but the mind suddenly goes blank? Could it be a recurrent fingering trap? One thing you must determine is what is actually happening in your head and with your hands and body at the moment of the error and just prior, before you go chasing a cure. That could take some time, a few weeks, just to find the pattern. Then take it to your doctor, if it needs medical attention.   One of my problems, other than the going blank at weird times while looking at my place in the music, was straining to hear the old ladies' gossip on the back row while playing the prelude or postlude. It created bad posture and caused me to miss notes. I played a lot of Howells with building registrations, so that they would talk a little louder and louder. Then I shut down to pianissimo, and they'd be talking plenty loud enough for me to hear them.   After playing regularly for a while, I developed performance anxiety, particularly playing around other organists. It's funny that sometimes the more one plays and learns, the worse this condition may get. And it is not always true that getting back on the horse cures the fear. I've played better at sub jobs since I quit the regular job, and I'm definitely not practicing like I used to.   I'm not making light of your question, but as a client once misquoted to me, "The mind is a terrible thing." I sincerely hope things get better.   Glenda Sutton gksjd85@direcway.com